i'm losing myself and i hate it..

nervous. heart beating . anxious . you? . confuse . hatred . tearing eyes . hatred . me . you . missing so so so so so so so so so so so so much . us . not sure . love. bullshit! . anger . sinful . imagination . not real . stupid . cheater .  but . dear . still . damn . missing . love . wanting . wanting . wanting . devil . lust . let go . no . love . wanting . waiting? . no . hoping . praying . betterment . sunshine . rainbow . future . forever . tears . raining . question mark? . blur . whatever ...................~

xoxo